Losing Someone Special...

This poem was written by me on 30th July 2004... It was that awful day when I had to write this to take out all the pain & sorrow that had enveloped me...The misery began on 27th July 2004...

& the pain is still intact in my heart...

Well, read on....perhaps you'll understand the reason for my pain...

Even with open eyes I see his face,

When I close my eyes, I feel a warm embrace !!

He was my guide, my friend & my teacher,

He loved nature & it's each & every creature !!

He helped the world in ways more than one,

& was full of enthusiasm & fun !!

He was strong-headed but his heart was made of gold,

He was more than humane & was never cold !!

He had the will to fight & the courage to face,

His memories are so special that no one can erase !!

His eyes said things that he never spoke,

& that morning I lost him when I woke !!

He went away, far away, beyond my reach,

& all that I could do was cry & weep !!

I asked myself -- "Is he no more? Is he dead?

"No....he is with me always" -- that's what my heart said !!

I can't see him, can't talk to him, but I know he is around,

Yes, I do believe in the mysteries that have never been found !!

He is taking care of me from somewhere very near,

As this truth dawned on me, I was free from all kinds of fear !!

My heart said -- "STOP CRYING, don't give him this pain" ,

but his cherished memories in my heart and mind will always remain !!

I know he is listening to everything that I  want him to,

Yes, "I'll try my best to fulfill your dreams & be what you wanted me to" !!

LOVE YOU LOTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS....

Chandni..

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I WAS HURT

Well, I have already mentioned in my profile that I love writing poems...I've decide to share a few of them with my friends...

Your honest opinions will be highly appreciated...

The following poem was written by me when I was really dejected with life...I WAS HURT...upset about many things...

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I was hurt...was miffed...it was quite evident,

But I didn't utter a word out of embarrassment !!

I felt small...tiny...perhaps insignificant,

As I was made to believe that I am redundant !!

I mustered all the strength I had, to face others,

My feelings were becoming as weak as feathers !!

I was quite apprehensive about my decisions,

However I had to give myself some reasons !!

I had no one beside me to comfort...to reassure,

I had to explain to myself more & more !!

In this grand world, I felt abandoned...lonely,

Of course there was no support - worldly nor holy !!

As I graduated to a higher level of realization,

Things changed...perspectives saw transformation !!

At the end of this dilemma...this predicament,

I can only say "I AM HURT", which is quite apparent !!

Chandni...

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LoVe. . . . . . . .Watzz dat???

I often ponder that what's love??

Is it merely a feeling? an emotion?? just a word?? what??

People from all castes, all groups, all religions, all countries & from all classes experience this 4-lettered word...

It holds so much significance...Strange but True...

A set of people feel that love is sacrifice...where you prioritize the happiness of your loved one...

Another set of people attribute it to a feeling of comfort & pleasure when you are with that special someone...

Some say that it could be Love at first sight...Others believe that it takes time to grow...

And there is yet another group that confuses Love with Lust...

With due respect to all the groups, I feel that love is just being yourself...no changes...no hypocrisy...just care...understanding...& trust... These words are so commonly heard...

Qualities related to care, trust, understanding and the like are so easy to interpret yet so rare in us...

What makes LOVE such an over-hyped topic??

I guess it's the fact that none of us truly understands it's connotation...

 Ummm...ya I'm also just trying to apprehend the concept...

Often I hear people say "LOVE IS BLIND"...

I say "LOVE IS BLIND BUT THE LOVER SHOULD NOT BE BLIND"...

Well, that's how the cookie crumbles...love today is not simply "LOVE"... It's governed by zillions of other factors --- parents, society, status, looks ---- to name a few...

So how can a mere feeling compete with all these factors combined together...

Tough...

The path of love is precarious, often dangerous...

But then I'm talking about love, not attraction, lust or mere timepass...

There's lots to say but with so many conflicting thoughts it's best to understand love the way each one of sees it...

By the end of it, it's an individual's perspective which governs the true meaning of anything...

So i'll sign off for now,

keeping in mind THE ETERNAL LOVE--------- THE LOVE FOR GOD...!!!

Hoping to hear from you guys...

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