UNCERTAINITIES ...........

The UNCERTAINITIES in life always take a toll over me.....I'm dumbstruck at the ways in which things & people change...Often when i think that I want to drift away, I'm pulled towards the very subject from whom I want to run away & at other times when I really want to be with someone, the person in question acts weird and indifferent......

Is it the rule that we don't get what we want?? Or when we want it??

I mean what's the use of getting food when you aren't hungry?

Or water, when you aren't thirsty??

We get "Hate", when we want love and the like. . . . .  .

Exasperated with one and all, I choose to write (type) what & how I feel before I end up blasting someone....It isn't that I'm always down and upset....Perhaps it's only when I feel this way, I decide to vent it all out through this medium....

I have my share of pleasant tihngs in life but when I'm really happy, I enjoy those moments and don't really keep a written record of them....

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Thought processes have come to a halt . . . . .  . .

I gotta end this right here.....abruptly . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .:((

JUST A DILEMMA.....

I'm back...after a sabbatical of sorts... I have been pondering over a lot of things off late... However, the thought processes have not been able to elicit any answers to my queries...my questions remain unanswered...The misery is still the same, if not more...

Often I have had to make a choice between ethics, practicality and morals as against DESIRES...Pheww!!!!!

This is perhaps one of the most pertinent dilemma that I have faced in my life..

The questions have been tormenting me...

How often do you meet people who can change your life? Well, almost everyday....

But the people who change your life for good and in a positive way are just a handful or even lesser...So why is it that when we really get someone who we've always wanted, we have to sacrifice the company for societal norms, ethics, caste and the similar barriers....Why can't we just do what our heart says...Why do the worldy pressures weigh us down....????

The learned men say that the reason is one's MORAL VALUES....

But do the moral values exist to throttle a person??

Bah!!! What is the use of the great philosophies being passed on from generation to generation when our existence itself is engulfed by EGO...

The "I" or "SELF" of any individual is much more than the happiness of his kin...

It's strange that we all face these conflicting thoughts everyday but none of us has the courage to break free from these bonds of the make-believe world...

Two wrongs can never make a right...

Many a times I feel that it's best for me to move on in life...& not to try & hold onto things or people who, perhaps, were never mine...But then the irony of life is that "moving on is a very simple thing...It's what you leave behind that makes it difficult"...

There is so much that I'll have to leave behind...that I'll have to bury...in order to MOVE ON...

Damn such a world!!!

The readers here may be wondering that if I have so much to say then why is it that I'm not trying to solve the discussed "dilemma"...

My woe is beyond description...It's not that I don't have the courage to fight back but the problem is that the things or people who I would want to fight for may not be with me in this battle of setting things right...

So once again I'm exactly at the place where I started...looking into the mirror...doubting my own reflection...Clueless about the ways in which the future will unfold...The only consolation being that "I TRIED"...

Once again I submit myself to the norms laid down by the society...the ego of families & the wishes of my maker...

Detached...Disgruntled...Thwarted...

Period...