IT'S ALL ABOUT ONE'S PERSPECTIVE

Isn't life all about OUR PERSPECTIVES....??
We see what we want to see & we understand things the way we want to, which may not necessarily be right.....
At times I'm really amused at the way WE behave.....
We complain, we crib, we yell, we shout, we criticize.......we see mistakes with almost everyone & everything.......

The fact is that
THERE IS NO GOOD OR BAD IN THE WORLD....BUT OUR PERSPECTIVE MAKES IT SO.....

What people call "CONGESTION" in a train or a bus becomes "ATMOSPHERE" in a night club....

So it's just how we view things...... The person who we love today may become a complete starnger tomorrow, a hobby in the present may be something that we detest after a few years....

Things, people, places all are the same - neither good nor bad.....
What changes is just our perspective.....

This leads me to another grave problem faced by us in the present era....
The problem of doing things we don't believe in.....
The issue here is that no matter how much we evolve or modernize, we still, somewhere, are hypocrites........
Likewise we keep aping things we don't believe in & at the same time discard the principles that we once clung to......
We may not want to booze or fag or dope but we will still do so -------- WHY??
"Good heavens, what will our friends think about us?"......

The thought & desire to be socially acceptable makes the wisest person look foolish....
We don't have the balls to say "No, my principles don't allow me to do this"....
We have to be "with it"....& hence we don't care a damn about our true feelings about any matter at hand.....

When I look around I see myself also falling prey to some of the similar aspects of the society.....
But the point is that none of us wants to try & come out of the complacent zones that we are in...
Given that, I guess we can only introspect & get a glimpse of the vistas of the future. These vistas of the future project a very grim & sordid state lest we rectify our ways and see WHAT WE REALLY WANT (BASED ON OUR PERSPECTIVES) and then try & get it.....

ALL THE BEST TO US ALL.....

Chandni...

UNCERTAINITIES ...........

The UNCERTAINITIES in life always take a toll over me.....I'm dumbstruck at the ways in which things & people change...Often when i think that I want to drift away, I'm pulled towards the very subject from whom I want to run away & at other times when I really want to be with someone, the person in question acts weird and indifferent......

Is it the rule that we don't get what we want?? Or when we want it??

I mean what's the use of getting food when you aren't hungry?

Or water, when you aren't thirsty??

We get "Hate", when we want love and the like. . . . .  .

Exasperated with one and all, I choose to write (type) what & how I feel before I end up blasting someone....It isn't that I'm always down and upset....Perhaps it's only when I feel this way, I decide to vent it all out through this medium....

I have my share of pleasant tihngs in life but when I'm really happy, I enjoy those moments and don't really keep a written record of them....

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Thought processes have come to a halt . . . . .  . .

I gotta end this right here.....abruptly . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .:((

JUST A DILEMMA.....

I'm back...after a sabbatical of sorts... I have been pondering over a lot of things off late... However, the thought processes have not been able to elicit any answers to my queries...my questions remain unanswered...The misery is still the same, if not more...

Often I have had to make a choice between ethics, practicality and morals as against DESIRES...Pheww!!!!!

This is perhaps one of the most pertinent dilemma that I have faced in my life..

The questions have been tormenting me...

How often do you meet people who can change your life? Well, almost everyday....

But the people who change your life for good and in a positive way are just a handful or even lesser...So why is it that when we really get someone who we've always wanted, we have to sacrifice the company for societal norms, ethics, caste and the similar barriers....Why can't we just do what our heart says...Why do the worldy pressures weigh us down....????

The learned men say that the reason is one's MORAL VALUES....

But do the moral values exist to throttle a person??

Bah!!! What is the use of the great philosophies being passed on from generation to generation when our existence itself is engulfed by EGO...

The "I" or "SELF" of any individual is much more than the happiness of his kin...

It's strange that we all face these conflicting thoughts everyday but none of us has the courage to break free from these bonds of the make-believe world...

Two wrongs can never make a right...

Many a times I feel that it's best for me to move on in life...& not to try & hold onto things or people who, perhaps, were never mine...But then the irony of life is that "moving on is a very simple thing...It's what you leave behind that makes it difficult"...

There is so much that I'll have to leave behind...that I'll have to bury...in order to MOVE ON...

Damn such a world!!!

The readers here may be wondering that if I have so much to say then why is it that I'm not trying to solve the discussed "dilemma"...

My woe is beyond description...It's not that I don't have the courage to fight back but the problem is that the things or people who I would want to fight for may not be with me in this battle of setting things right...

So once again I'm exactly at the place where I started...looking into the mirror...doubting my own reflection...Clueless about the ways in which the future will unfold...The only consolation being that "I TRIED"...

Once again I submit myself to the norms laid down by the society...the ego of families & the wishes of my maker...

Detached...Disgruntled...Thwarted...

Period...

Losing Someone Special...

This poem was written by me on 30th July 2004... It was that awful day when I had to write this to take out all the pain & sorrow that had enveloped me...The misery began on 27th July 2004...

& the pain is still intact in my heart...

Well, read on....perhaps you'll understand the reason for my pain...

Even with open eyes I see his face,

When I close my eyes, I feel a warm embrace !!

He was my guide, my friend & my teacher,

He loved nature & it's each & every creature !!

He helped the world in ways more than one,

& was full of enthusiasm & fun !!

He was strong-headed but his heart was made of gold,

He was more than humane & was never cold !!

He had the will to fight & the courage to face,

His memories are so special that no one can erase !!

His eyes said things that he never spoke,

& that morning I lost him when I woke !!

He went away, far away, beyond my reach,

& all that I could do was cry & weep !!

I asked myself -- "Is he no more? Is he dead?

"No....he is with me always" -- that's what my heart said !!

I can't see him, can't talk to him, but I know he is around,

Yes, I do believe in the mysteries that have never been found !!

He is taking care of me from somewhere very near,

As this truth dawned on me, I was free from all kinds of fear !!

My heart said -- "STOP CRYING, don't give him this pain" ,

but his cherished memories in my heart and mind will always remain !!

I know he is listening to everything that I  want him to,

Yes, "I'll try my best to fulfill your dreams & be what you wanted me to" !!

LOVE YOU LOTSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS....

Chandni..

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I WAS HURT

Well, I have already mentioned in my profile that I love writing poems...I've decide to share a few of them with my friends...

Your honest opinions will be highly appreciated...

The following poem was written by me when I was really dejected with life...I WAS HURT...upset about many things...

The poem follows - - - - - - - 

I was hurt...was miffed...it was quite evident,

But I didn't utter a word out of embarrassment !!

I felt small...tiny...perhaps insignificant,

As I was made to believe that I am redundant !!

I mustered all the strength I had, to face others,

My feelings were becoming as weak as feathers !!

I was quite apprehensive about my decisions,

However I had to give myself some reasons !!

I had no one beside me to comfort...to reassure,

I had to explain to myself more & more !!

In this grand world, I felt abandoned...lonely,

Of course there was no support - worldly nor holy !!

As I graduated to a higher level of realization,

Things changed...perspectives saw transformation !!

At the end of this dilemma...this predicament,

I can only say "I AM HURT", which is quite apparent !!

Chandni...

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LoVe. . . . . . . .Watzz dat???

I often ponder that what's love??

Is it merely a feeling? an emotion?? just a word?? what??

People from all castes, all groups, all religions, all countries & from all classes experience this 4-lettered word...

It holds so much significance...Strange but True...

A set of people feel that love is sacrifice...where you prioritize the happiness of your loved one...

Another set of people attribute it to a feeling of comfort & pleasure when you are with that special someone...

Some say that it could be Love at first sight...Others believe that it takes time to grow...

And there is yet another group that confuses Love with Lust...

With due respect to all the groups, I feel that love is just being yourself...no changes...no hypocrisy...just care...understanding...& trust... These words are so commonly heard...

Qualities related to care, trust, understanding and the like are so easy to interpret yet so rare in us...

What makes LOVE such an over-hyped topic??

I guess it's the fact that none of us truly understands it's connotation...

 Ummm...ya I'm also just trying to apprehend the concept...

Often I hear people say "LOVE IS BLIND"...

I say "LOVE IS BLIND BUT THE LOVER SHOULD NOT BE BLIND"...

Well, that's how the cookie crumbles...love today is not simply "LOVE"... It's governed by zillions of other factors --- parents, society, status, looks ---- to name a few...

So how can a mere feeling compete with all these factors combined together...

Tough...

The path of love is precarious, often dangerous...

But then I'm talking about love, not attraction, lust or mere timepass...

There's lots to say but with so many conflicting thoughts it's best to understand love the way each one of sees it...

By the end of it, it's an individual's perspective which governs the true meaning of anything...

So i'll sign off for now,

keeping in mind THE ETERNAL LOVE--------- THE LOVE FOR GOD...!!!

Hoping to hear from you guys...

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